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A grown-up nightmare


I had a really awful dream last night. I had a dream that I went on vacation somewhere and the day after I got back, I went to work. It started out as a fairly normal day at work. Until I my boss handed me a job application and told me to start filling it out. I knew it was for a teaching position for next year. I was slightly confused because I thought that I’d already accepted the offer for the job. I started to fill out the application anyway, but started to feel very frustrated because the packet was more than 50 pages long. It was a beast of an application. After 15 minutes or so, I’d only filled out a few pages, but my boss came back to take it away. As he left the room about ten people filed into the room. It all of a sudden dawned on me that this was the school board and they were all there to interview me. I was terrified. They all sat down and started looking at me expectantly. Apparently I was supposed to have come up with a presentation telling them why I was best for the job. I looked at them all and froze. The. I looked down at myself… I was wearing a t-shirt and short jean shorts, as if I’d dressed that morning thinking that I was still on vacation. I was mortified. I apologized profusely for my appearance. Many in the board just nodded their heads with a pitying smile. It was awful. Then I started to stammer and I tried to explain that I didn’t know what to say because I didn’t know what I was supposed to do. They all just looked at me and I know they could sense my nerves and embarrassment. Ugh. I started to say my name and a little but about me, all the while, one-by-one they started to get up and leave, ready to hear the next interviewee. I knew I’d blown it once I realized they were leaving after only having been there for two minutes. Oh my gosh… It was an awful feeling. The job that I thought I already had was all of a sudden torn away  from me by my own stupidity and lack of preparation. 

Right after the interview, I asked for the rest of the day off because I felt horrendous. I tried to tell my mom about it but she was too busy to listen to me. 
Needless to say, I was more than happy to wake up this morning.