Monthly Archives: January 2010

Roller Coasters: A Love That Was Never Meant to Be

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I don’t know what the heck my problem is. Lol. I am having issues. But luckily, for once, these issues are issues I can’t really control. Ones that don’t really affect me, or anyone else. This is because these issues occur as I am sleeping: in my dreams. This past week I have had two of these freaking dreams. Two. Which I suppose really shouldn’t frustrate me all that much. Except that I ahve been having some variation of this dream for a few years now. Which is weird. And now I suppose you’ll ask what is this dream that I keep having… And I suppose I should tell you. But please. Don’t laugh. These dreams are so dumb. Just… weird.

I keep having these dreams that I will go to Lagoon. Or some type of very fun amusement park. But something always comes up and I NEVER get to ride a rollercoaster!!! It is soooo frustrating. Rollercoasters are definitely among my most favorite things in the whole entire planet. Ever. And So I have these dreams that start out so happy. I get to go ride some! But then, without fail, something comes up and I can’t ride them. Like one time I dreamt that I was at disney world again. And Briggs and I were going to go ride a very fun ride. But we kept getting lost so we couldn’t. Then it was time to go back to the hotel, and we hadn’t gotten to ride a single roller coaster. Another time I had a dream that I was at a fun amusement park and I was about to get on a ride, but then I had someone’s baby, and I couldn’t get on other wise the baby would fall to her death. Once I had a dream that I got to Lagoon just as it was closing. Once I had a dream that I went to an amusement park with Brittany, but she didn’t want to ride any of the big rides yet. So we just did stupid stuff. And then it closed. And we didn’t get to ride a single fun thing. Ugh. This week,  I had a dream that I was trying to get Morgan to go to Lagoon with me. So I went to her house, abut she wasn’t there. I finally found her after searching everywhere. And she agreed to go with me and we were so excited. But then she had to do some errands before hand. We finally got to go to Lagoon, but then I woke up. Then the next flipping night, I had a dream that I got to go to Lagoon. I don’t even remember with whom. But it was raining and they wouldn’t let us onto any of the rides.

I do not even understand why this is happening to me! Why do I keep having these dreams?

Goals to change the world. Or myself…

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So. I suppose it is that time of year again. It is a brand new year. The best excuse (however, still rather shabby) to become a new person. To start over again. And this, my dear friends, is what I intend to do. I don’t necessarily want to become a new person. That would be weird and nearly impossible to actually do. I just want to change the parts of me that I don’t like. Ha. Yeah, so I guess that basically is like becoming a totally new person. Just joking. But really. The purpose for me to change things about myself is so that I can become a better person. I want to become more Christ-like. I want to be the person that helps other people. The person that other people can come to. But that cannot happen until I can change those things about myself that I don’t like. I can’t be that person that everyone likes until I learn to like myself.

Therefore, I have come up with a plan. Yes, I have a plan! My plan? Change the world! Ha ha ha jk. But no really. In order to change the world, one must first change themselves. My plan, is to set goals. But not just any goals, my friends. Goals that I can and will actually accomplish. Goals that I intend to post on my wall where I can see them every day. Goals that I will do. I will start now and not stop until they are either accomplished, or until next year. Unless they become my goal for next year as well. Which I am sure some of them will. And if I can do this, then I will be successful where i have as of yet been unsuccessful. As of yet I have not been able to complete a goal, or continue it on until the next year. But never fear, for this year, this wonderful, even year of 2010, I will accomplish those things that I have set out to do. Without fail.